Friday, August 25, 2006

Pamamaalam






Mahirap. Pero sadyang ganun. Malungkot. Pero kailangan. *luha

Sunday, August 13, 2006

Deviant Deevian.






Online Gallery

please visit My DeviantArt.

New photos were uploaded today.

Thursday, August 10, 2006

Ako






Yosi Sa Sunken



*thanks Glenn dear for the photo.

Tuesday, August 08, 2006

Ngayong Gabi






Moving On/Critique/Etc

Tonight I Can Write
by Pablo Neruda


Tonight I can write the saddest lines.

Write, for example, 'The night is starry
and the stars are blue and shiver in the distance.
The night wind revolves in the sky and sings.

Tonight I can write the saddest lines.
I loved her, and sometimes she loved me too.
Through nights like this one I held her in my arms.
I kissed her again and again under the endless sky.

She loved me, sometimes I loved her too.
How could one not have loved her great still eyes.
Tonight I can write the saddest lines.
To think that I do not have her. To feel that I have lost her.

To hear the immense night, still more immense without her.
And the verse falls to the soul like dew to the pasture.

What does it matter that my love could not keep her.
The night is starry and she is not with me.

This is all. In the distance someone is singing. In the distance.
My soul is not satisfied that it has lost her.

My sight tries to find her as though to bring her closer.
My heart looks for her, and she is not with me.

The same night whitening the same trees.
We, of that time, are no longer the same.

I no longer love her, that's certain, but how I loved her.
My voice tried to find the wind to touch her hearing.

Another's. She will be another's. As she was before my kisses.
Her voice, her bright body. Her infinite eyes.

I no longer love her, that's certain, but maybe I love her.
Love is so short, forgetting is so long.

Because through nights like this one I held her in my arms
my soul is not satisfied that it has lost her.

Though this be the last pain that she makes me suffer
and these the last verses that I write for her.



Yes, beautiful poem I know. I'm becoming addicted to Pablo Neruda these days. That's one of my favorites sa mga gawa niya, and i like the last six lines the most. Haaay.

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Today was our first crtique in photography class. Thank God, hindi ako dinaot ng fatale ni Ma'am Anne. But she made many relevant comments. She said i had excellent prints, but she did't want me to be just a printer. She wanted me to be a photographer 'who sees'. Wow. That was REALLY something. I was affected by that comment. Big time! For someone who admits to herself that she's seeing no improvement so far, it was a challenge. I was the only one in class whose contact prints she checked. She said i had far more interesting and better photos than the ones i presented to her. Well, at some point that was a relief. I really hope i'll do better next time. I have to shoot more.

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Habang naglalakad kami mula CNB papuntang Vinzon's kanina habang bumubuhos ang malakas na ulan, nakatanggap ako ng text mula sa buddy Icang ko:

"Anong mas OK sayo? 'I love you' o "I'm in love with you'?"

That made me reaaaalllly think. Tinanong ko mga kasama ko. Iba-iba ang sagot nila. Iba-ibang rason.

Pero ako, pinili ko ang 'I love you'. Kasi ang 'I'm in love with you' ay isang phase lamang. Ibig sabihin lilipas sya. Ayoko nun. Ayoko ng dadaan lang. Gusto ko tumatagal, lumalalim habang tumatagal. Ang 'I love you' ay isang realization. May pinagbasehan, may pinagdaanan. Tatagal, lalalim.

Tama ka buds, ulan lang to. :)

Sunday, August 06, 2006

Cramming






Crammer Me/Random Stuff

Here i go again. I'm supposed to write a paper, pero eto, nagba-blog na naman ako.

I just got home from a lunch/movie date with my sister and my aunt and tito zalds. :) Ving and i watched 'The Break-up' which was not really a good movie (although Jennifer Aniston was gorgeous as always) while my Aunt and Tito Zaldz watched 'Pirates of the Carribean'. The fact that the 'The Break-up' wasn't that good made me feel bad wasting my time, but the realization that i was supposed to watch 'Amores Perros' and 'Requiem for a Dream' for Film100 made me feel even worse. Because those two films are very very good, and my paper is due tomorrow. And to compensate for that, here i am, blogging myself again. Hahaha.

Wala na namang tulugan 'to. Although i'm soo used to staying up 24hrs straight. I should just make sure i'm up tomorrow for my 8am film102 class and my mind should be awake enough to comprehend Mam Anne's criticisms for my first critique in photography class. Tomorrow also is UP SINING at LIPUNAN's Applicants Orientation. (Hey guys punta na sa CAL New Building and bring your friends! :D) Too bad i couldn't be there, i have a class until 7. Whew. Good luck sa time management skills ko.

Tay Toto is arriving tomorrow from China, he asked me what i wanted for pasalubong when he called yesterday. Meron na daw akong flash disk. Yay! :) Late ko na narealize na i should have told him to buy me a WONG KAR WAI DVD COLLECTION. Although i emailed him kahapon din agad, i really really hope he still had time to check his mail. I would love to have that collection. :)Maliban sa ang meron lang na Wong kar Wai films sa Binondo ay yung mga walang subtitles, mahal ang original sa amazon.com. :D

Anyway... I dowloaded Mozilla yesterday, and yeah, i discovered that my blog looks different when i use IExplorer. I wonder how can i fix this problem.

I guess i have to get back to work now. I just paused the DVD player. Hehehe. I bought taco bell churros for Kepi, but too bad hindi na ko makakapunta sa Kule ofis. :( I really have to finish everything. And besides, malakas ang ulan.

Oh yeah! I almost forgot! To those who want to watch this year's CINEMALAYA's Best Picture "TULAD NG DATI" at the UP Film Institue this Tuesday at 5pm, please contact me for the tickets. Only for 50pesos. 091667003417/aprilfoolish27@yahoo.com

Ok ok, totoo na to. Back to work na talaga. Wish me luck! :)

Thursday, August 03, 2006

Bagong Buhok.






New Hair



Sa wakas. Short hair + hot pink streaks. So petit bourgeouise. Haha.

STOP THE KILLINGS!






3 activists killed in 24 Hours
1 missing since July 28


BY BULATLAT
Posted 2:10 p.m., July 31, 2006


Three activists were killed in the last 24 hours in the regions of Northern and Central Luzon and Sorsogon province, the three priority areas of President Gloria Macapagal-Arroyo’s all-out-war policy.

Dr. Chandu Claver,49, Bayan Muna-Kalinga Chapter chair, and his wife, Alice, 42, were
ambushed at around 7 a.m. today, July 31, in front of St. Toni’s College by two unidentified gunmen on board a black van. The couple was dropping off
their daughter to school. At 1 p.m. Alice was pronounced dead at the Kalinga Provincial Hospital while Claver is in critical condition. Their daughter
was unhurt.

Earlier at around 6 a.m., Rie Mon Guran, 21, spokesperson of League of Filipino Students in Aquinas University in Legazpi City was shot to
death in Bulan, Sorsogon by an unidentified gunman. Guran was shot four times and sustained multiple gunshot wounds.

At 4 a.m. yesterday, July 30, Mario Florendo, 56 was killed inside his home in Barangay (village) Parista in the town of Lupao, province of Nueva
Ecija, according to Karapatan-Nueva Ecija (Alliance for the Advancement of People’s Rights) secretary general Beatriz Perido.

The murder of the three brings to 121 the total of civilians killed since January 2006 alone.

Also in Lupao, Dionisio Malapit, a peasant leader of Balbalungao village was abducted on July 28. Perido said the abductors also beat up Malapit’s
son then burned his house before leaving. Perido said they were also confirming reports of two other peasants killed in the villages of Salvacion and
Bagong Flores, also in Lupao.

In its counter-insurgency program Oplan Bantay Laya, the president named the regions of Ilocos- Cordillera, Central Luzon and the province of
Sorsogon as three of its priority areas. ###

http://www.bulatlat.com/

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STOP POLITICAL KILLINGS!

Wednesday, August 02, 2006

Lollipops






And a lot more.



(kuha mula sa overpass sa Commonwealth/ Ylanan, Ika-24 ng Hulyo, 2006)
Para kina karl, kepi at glenn.

Nostalgia






"...sometimes i try to reason out what did i do to deserve you. Or am i really good enough for you?" (an excerpt from a letter dated Dec12, 2005)

Yes and no. Yes, you were so wonderful as a person, as a partner. But you were way way good that you didn't deserve someone like me. I was not good enough for you.

But i'm so happy you came to my life. You changed me. You made me a better person. And i'll forever be thankful for that. I remember the times when i was being the brat and immature person that i was (and still am), your patience and self control were really admirable. :)

Beyb (as i used to call you). You're still one of the best things that ever happened to me. Thank you.

Always,
(Princess Potpot)

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Dapat kahapon pa tong post na to. August 1, para alalahanin ang masayang araw labing-isang buwan na ang nakakaraan. :) May mga masayang bagay talaga na kinailangang matapos. Malungkot ang katotohanang yun, pero kelangang tanggapin.